https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p1PSG2uu8WQsong – Ronan Keating
Ralph Waldo Emerson once said “All life is, is an Experiment. The More Experiments You Make, the Better”
This statement is so true. Here I am at 50 years old and I sure as hell don’t know everything. Not even close. Do you? I would love to sit down with any person who honestly thinks they have this life all figured out. I would like to see what they are smokin cuz I want some.
As I am sitting here this morning, drinking my coffee and writing, I am looking around and taking stock of my life and I am smiling. I am smiling because I believe I have a pretty damn good life. Do I wish I had saved more when I was younger? Yes! Do I wish I had made some better decisions in every aspect of my life? Yes. Do I wish I was in better shape? God Yes. Who the hell doesn’t have thoughts like this? Are they regrets? Maybe. Have they shaped who I am? Definitely!
If I hadn’t lived my life the way I did, would I be here in this moment right now? Don’t know, don’t care. Because I am here. And right now, this is where I want to be. As the song, SCARS (attached) by Ronan Keating goes. These Scars are such a part of me. They make me who I am. No apologies.
Now that is not to say I don’t regret words spoken out of anger or meanness, or hurt I may have caused someone due to my actions. But, the decisions I have made – are experiments. Things I have done – are experiments. Choices I have lived with – are experiments. They all make up this person I look at every morning in the mirror named, Quinn.
I was laying in bed last night thinking about how to end this blog post and I realized something. The whole premise of this blog “Standing on the Edge of the Rest of My Life” is all about these scars. These experiments/scars/mistakes or what ever you want to call them are bridges we have burned so that we hopefully wont go back. Some repeat the same mistake over without learning.
I hope that by looking internally at myself, where I have been and what I have done up to this point will teach me something. Something that I can take with me into the rest of my life. Something I can learn from so that I don’t repeat the same mistake.
It’s a great point to be at. I am ready to jump of that edge and see where 50+ takes me. Or better said, where I take myself beyond 50. I know there will be other lessons to learn, experiments to make, and I hope to learn from those as well and be the best I can be. I am counting on you all to keep me in check.