I don’t know how you parents do it! My hat is off to you all! I truly have a deeper understanding of how it must feel raising your kids. I am not truly a kid “hater” as I may lead you to believe. Deep down I love kids and I think I would have been a  good dad.

BUT DAMN! How do you remain calm when you have sick kids? How do you control your emotions? How do you not scream at the top of your lungs? How do you not pull all of your hair out when you are feeling like everything is going wrong!?

HOLY SHIT! This week has been awful. Yesterday was awful! Out of five dogs, 4 of them are sick. LORD! Kerry and I have a dog with an ear infection, one with allergies, one battling eye issues, One with a bad disk in his back and a bacterial infection (don’t know how the fuck that happened) and then one up and gets sick with diarrhea and vomiting.

Yesterday morning, I nearly lost my mind because Bo would not quit shaking and panting. I knew he was in pain and yet he would not take his meds. I had to dissolve them in water and force them down his throat. He was none to happy about that. He wont eat and I still have yet to see him eat. But, right now I don’t care. He is sleeping which indicates to me that he is not in pain right now.

Last night was the worst! I know I did not sleep well worrying about all these poor dogs. We got up multiple times to potty and throw up. I was so frazzled that I did not care one bit that Max peed and pooped all over the kitchen. I just wanted to get back in bed and told myself I would worry about it in the morning. I didn’t realize he had thrown up all over the bed as well.

I had really intended to give you all an update on my weight goals. That will have to wait. My babies are my big concern right now. As I write this, the house is totally quiet. They are all out cold sleeping. And that makes me happy. I am literally taking in the sound of silence. it is so peaceful. I love to hear the sound of their snoring. I am just sitting here and staring at them.

Yes, this week has been trying with multiple vet visits and tons of money spent. But, I would not change the situation for the world. I could not imagine any one of these boys not being in our lives. Each one of them have their own unique personality and way of communicating with us. My heart bursts with love for them and I only want the best for them.

I know that is how all of you parents feel when you stand in the doorway of your child’s room and watch them quietly sleep in their bed. I get it.

Max is sleeping so hopefully the diarrhea and vomiting have stopped and he will be OK. I felt so bad for him. I have not idea what brought it on and then I started worrying if he had the same bacterial infection as Bo does and do I need medication for him? We are going to have to see how today goes.

Shit the only one that hasn’t had anything go wrong is Gus. But we aint through the weekend yet! 😉 One thing I do know is that they will get all of the cuddles they need. All of the ice cubes they can handle to stay hydrated. Ill wash as many blankets as I need to. 🙂

I get to do this all on my own this week because Kerry is headed to Idaho to start working on our first rental property. I also bought another flip house up there. We are going to manage these finances. I am excited to talk to you all about that later.